illusion.
we're all living in our own deluded world of delusion.
ever wonder why it's so hard to be content than being discontent by someone or something?
delusions.
the way we view the world, the way we view ourselves, the way we view the events around us ... are all analysed and characterised by the way we want it to be.
how do you own a positive mind?
by telling yourself you're awesome. by feeding your mind with motivating happy thoughts that generate a positive charge which in the end results in you feeling good. That itself is a proof of how illusionlike this world is. it shapes itself the way we want it to be.
like how you could bury yourself under your duvet the whole day and not have a single of care of the world or read dozens of books in a day just to delve into your another
world that held the contentment you crave or maybe the way you don't care about what's happening around you because you're tired of how vile and unfair this world is.
yet, deep inside you know that no matter how much you want the world to rotate the way you want it to be, it just won't. No matter how desperately you want the time to quit ticking for a few minutes or hours or just a FEW SECONDS OMG because you forgot to do a freaking assignment that is supposed to be given in today, the clock will still go "tick tick tick" every second without missing a beat unless, the battery ran out :P
so today, after a nice quality time with my family, we prayed Isya' together.
Every broken pieces were momentarily snapped back in place,
there was no sound around us,
except for the beautiful prayer and quran recitations by my father,
and the occasional sounds of crickets and the creatures of the night,
all thoughts were erased,
my heart and mind were together, at ease,
contentment.
This is what true happiness is.
I couldn't describe the feeling for it feels... surreal,
yet standing beside my mother, praying, listening,
every cells in me thought "i wish time will just stop"
it hits me then after i turned my head to the left for the last action of the prayer,
how golden time really is,
how much i love my father and mother,
and brother and grandma.
and my sisters and their family,
and,
i couldn't help but think,
"what if this is my last prayer with my mom and dad?"
and.
i also couldn't ignore the thought of,
how far my sisters are,
and how precious the old times are,
and how little i appreciated things back then,
and how time never stop for a single being,
and how kind and sweet Allah is.
conclusion is : contentment and true happiness are often found when you stop chasing the world. For, the world will come to those who doesn't chase after it and only then, will your heart be filled with ease.
sorry if this doesn't make sense to you but i have been told that i am pretty complicated and not many people understand the way i deliver things but then again, i only live to please my Almighty Creator and this, is my lair of thoughts.
