Frustration

Have you ever feel frustrated by something or someone ?

Well I have . Numerous of times already and right now I'm completely frustrated by myself ^^"

Why ? It's coz of my bad habit of procrastinating .

I procrastinate so much that it results into this hateful feeling of being frustrated of myself .

Last week , I had alot of activities therefore I missed alot of classes meaning I missed LOADS of precious lessons from my teachers which also MEANS that I will be a step back in knowledge from my other friends in class MEANING that I also got LOADS of work & hw's to catch up to ^^" 

I know I have alot of work ever since last week but .. regretfully . I procrastinated in asking my friends & teachers WHAT is the hw & notes should I do and now I end up just doing the hw's that I know and can do coz yeah , I missed those classes so how the heck am I suppose to know how to do this hw's = =

I'll just...stuff it in = =

I hate not knowing what to do but sometimes laziness takes the best of me & resulted into procrastination AND ended with me being frustrated by myself .

I HAVE TO GET HOLD OF THIS GAME . I'm a 15 year old . Form 3 . PMR . Yeah .

PMR :) 

HA .. HA ..HA .

Seriously though .. I feel like I'm way out of the game this year . I'm lacking so much in discipline as a student .

I barely study at home and it's a miracle that I seem to always manage to finish my hw in time ^^"

I'm WORRIED for myself . I want to get 9A's for PMR but judging from my actions so far .. I don't think so :/

Tomorrow , I want to come early to school . I wanna catch up with the missing work & ask them bout things I don't understand bout the lesson :)

I wanna try to change myself . Groom myself into a better person ~ so that I won't ever be frustrated of myself ever again . I'll TRY . I assure you although it's hard . Extremely hard but yeah there's no harm done with trying is it ? ;)

InsyaAllah .

=)

Math :D

Hehee . Yes . MATH or MATHEMATICS will be the subject of my post today :) Cool stuff right ? xD

So let me get this straight .

I LOVE math ... when I actually UNDERSTAND & know how to solve the equation =)

I had once hated math & think that it's the hardest subject on earth coz I suck at numbers . I can't even memorize dates properly . Damn . I tried though . I always try my best, but since I'm weak in that subject , I hv to double my effort + the fact that I'm a lazy kid makes it harder ^^" eheh .

NOW , I realized that I DON'T HATE MATH . At all . In fact , I actually enjoy learning math :) coz whenever I get to solve a math problem , it gives me a very happy & satisfied feeling :') besides .. math is a very important subject in this world ^^" love it or not it's a fact that you can't deny . Math occurs everyday in our life wether you realized it or not ;) So yeah ~ the relationship between me & math are now solved xD

Wassalam & Thank you for reading this lame post of mine =)

Simple is BEAUTIFUL

Who say simple is boring ?

Simple is perfect the way it is .

Not too fancy and not too dull .

Simply simple :)

I have been asked alot about this particular word .

"That is so simple "

"Why are you wearing such simple clothes? "

"Isn't that too simple ? "

etc. etc .

Well ~ my answer is : what's wrong with being simple ? nothing wrong with it . I like it . The sight does not hurt my eye and is comfy to look at ;) Besides , not everybody is as fashionable or creative as you are .

Everybody have their own taste and preferences in things . It may look dull and boring to you but pretty to others . It's ALL about personal preferences =)

Being SIMPLE is beautiful .

Don't be scared of being one .

Be yourself .

Don't force yourself to follow what other people say .

Simply BE YOURSELF !

As long as your simplicity doesn't conflict and affect yourself as a Muslim ;)

Responsibilities .

Assalamualaikum and a good night to all of you out there :)

So .. students of Malaysia . How was your 1st day of school ?

amazing ? cool ? epic ? boring ? etc etc ?

Whatever it is for you .. I hope that you'll still do your best to be a good student in school and be grateful for the fact that you can actually go to school , meet your friends and study with them when some kids out there can't even go to school coz of their family problems . Sad huh :(

So .. for me, 1st day of being a Form 3 in Sri Ayesha was OK .

I got kinda nervous at first coz when I arrived at school I don't know where the rest of the girls are -.-

but it turns out they were in the hall ;) hahaaa 

As for F3's Balqis class .. I LOVE IT . We even have a tweet corner ;) oh wait , it's called TWITT not tweet . woops . My bad xD

Anyways ~ it's very cool and exceed my expectations . Yup . I have LOW expectations for school this year coz I don't want to be dissapointed by the reality ^^ .

The sad thing is .. I was kinda wishing for new students :/ but oh well ~ 

Allah knows what is best for me ;)

Right . Responsibilities .

I am not proud nor happy to declare that I was choosen by the majority of my classmates to be the class leader of 3 Balqis ^^"

*sigh* I was hoping to be the class assistant not leader ^^" 

Being a leader is a HUGE responsibility .

Even though it's just a class leader it's still a leader .

I can't slack off , I have to fulfill my responsibilities .

If I slack off , I will gain a sin .

In the afterworld , we will be judged of all our deeds on earth including our responsibilities !

I don't think that I have the charisma to be a leader ^^"

I believe there are a few people in my class that are better than me in leading .

*sigh*

What happened happens . Not like I can change it aye ~

Pray  that I will be a good class leader and that being a leader will not affect myself in anyways such as my studies .

I'll just do my best . InsyaAllah :)

My 1st task for 2012 = Being a class leader for 3 Balqis ;)

Arright .

My new self .

The newlywed couple , Izyan & Fikri :) how cute x)

Assalamualaikum and a good night to all of you .

1st of all .. I know .. I know .. tomorrow is the 1st day of school and I'm suppose to be sleeping right now ^^ yup .

Relax ~ I will immediately go to sleep right after I finish this post ;)

Just 1 hour ago , I returned from the airport . My sis , the one on the pic above will be going back to Australia coz she work there ;) her husband Fikri work there too but will return on Thursday :)

Anyways ..

I just realized a very important thing about myself .

While walking in the airport , among the crowd , I realized something .

Something that has always been bothering me for aloooong time .

The fact that I actually was not as self conscious as I was before .

I actually DID NOT CARE A SINGLE CENT ABOUT WHAT OTHER PEOPLE WERE THINKING ABOUT ME ! *offcaps*

I know it's stupid , but hey , I have my insecurities .

Before this , whenever I am in a crowd or in front of other people , I was always worried sick about what they were thinking about me and I was very self conscious about myself .

but NOW , somehow , I got rid of that problematic disease of mine .

There I was , walking in the airport , like a boss , not caring about the random people around me , not caring about those weird look that some people were shooting at me .

Just walking . Walking . With not a single negative thought on my mind :)

ahhh ~ what an awesome feeling .

You know what , now that I think of it , It has actually lasted for along time already . I think .. my self consciousness start to disappear when I came back from Saudi .

I realized now , being in Saudi , entering ISG , has make me much more braver and confident in myself that I was before :) and I'm really happy for that . Alhamdulillah ~

See .. Everything happens for a reason ~

Even the stupidest actions have a reason behind it .

Allah knows what is best for you :)

Therefore , always thing positive and be grateful with what you have ;)

May there be more positive changes in myself for 2012 and the years ahead .

Insyaallah ~

May Allah bless you all and Goodnight ^^