Friday, June 13, 2014

Chunks #1

I always find it strange how people including me can still get so depressed and down and sad despite how delicious that pancake was or how beautiful the sky was yesterday morning and man, the sky is beautiful every single day, yet, so many seems sadly blind to it.

Blinded by themselves.

A self searching for the sound
wondering where it came from
searching 
and searching

and

never once realized that,
the world is white
the roads merge
the stars doesn't shine

shrouded by a blind fold
made of threads 
listening and listening
searching and searching

but

never once ask

why can't I see?

Thursday, June 12, 2014

What makes one different?

what makes a person different?

let's cut to the chase, i was never one who put another human being as admirable by their exterior thus my lack of fan girling as they say.

I never understood some people are being adored simply by being an actress or singer or model or some tv personality.  I just can not comprehend it and even when I try, back to zero.

For me, everyone has the same virtue. We were all born in the same inner state no matter in what condition we lived in although gradually as we get older, something somewhere in us changes and thus is how the emergence of all these individuals with strange habits, obsessions, likes and a diverse range of opinions too.

I'm that kid who gets annoyed easily especially when people rave over looks bam bam. For me, that's just retarded. Obsessing and longing to have that person's nose or i wish i have her nose or if i only have long legs bla bla bla bla blaaaaaaaaaaa gahd. Please, stay away from me. When people idolize over a certain famous individual, the same thought would always cross my mind.

Aren't we all the same? By beauty, what do you mean? You're just as pretty too you know?

i don't know why but i have this habit of imagining random people i see while walking around to be one of those famous people they all "admire" and thought meh what's the difference, that girl at the coffee shop i just saw is damn pretty too so what makes her different from those you rave over?

Frankly i'm stating this because I think in a sense this habit of crooning over someone's exterior indulgently in the end brings a cloud of insecurities towards the admirer especially when the admirer herself already have this sense of not being satisfied or ashamed of herself. There's nothing wrong with admiring one's features but it's wrong when it's too much where the admirer starts to compare that, say, model to herself and others and feel ugly.  Oh and also when people are so obsessed with that a certain famous individual and get this disease called being blind even though you're not. That's so wrong.

God Himself is proud with what He created so why are we creations of God ashamed of ourselves when the one whom our world revolves around are extremely proud and loves us more that we love ourselves?

but ya, it's fine with simply admiring it because you're admiring God's creation and that's it.
Say Alhamdulillah and move on tsk.

"and proclaim, the favor of your Lord" - Surah Ad dhuha

See, even God likes it when we talk about His blessings. You see, blessings come in variety of versions and some, may not come directly to us, but to the people around us.