The glory of fasting

Alhamdulillah . I have succesfully fast for the 1st time in 2012 :) Feeling proud of myself right now hahaa

Since fasting during a non Ramadhan month and schooldays are kinda hard , I made sure to check my schedules first so that it won't clash with any netball or handball trainings coz well you don't wanna use too much energy when you're fasting right ? logic . So at last I decided that I'll fast on the glorious 26th March of 2012 :D

Alhamdulillah I woke up early to eat my sahur without any problem ^^

After sahur I was thinking of doing some sunat prayers and read the Quran but end up falling asleep after I prayed Subuh ! *sigh* Oh well , everything happens for a reason . I probably will be sleepy in class if I was awake at that time .. probably .. but yeah , somehow I survived the day :')

Now , since I'm fasting , I didn't need to go down to the Mak Mah for morning break and lunch break so I just stayed in class and enjoy the peace and quitness of 3 Balqis when most of the residence are gone while finishing up my abandoned homeworks without any disturbance from anything and anyone :') Alhamdulillah . 

and you know what ! During Zohor prayer , my mind was so much calmer than usual and I seem to be more Khusyu' in my prayer than other days when I wasn't fasting . Subhanallah . I think today , I talk less because well I was fasting and I was saving energy xD hahah and I THINK because of that , my mind became less frantic with emotions and other stuff that disturb the peace and calm in my mind . 

So yeah , fasting is great way to calm yourself , teach you to be patient and also you'll gain rewards for your deeds and do you know that a fasting person Dua will not be rejected by Allah until they break their fast ? :) Subhanallah , amazing right ?

So everyone , let's all start fasting at least ONCE a week to get that wonderful affect and rewards you'll get when you fast BUT make sure you eat your Sahur first so that you'll have energy to do you daily routine okay ? :)

A kid at heart

Today , I went to Syabab bookstore at PKNS and bought LOOOOTS of new books .

Actually , I only bought four xD hahah

Interestingly ,after paying for the books , bought burgers , went home , sat down in my room , take out my books , put infront of me , stared at the books , I realized something .

I didn't bought any fictional stories at all .

I bought books which are more to thinking and real stuff and in other words , more matured .

I guess I am growing up huh .

Or maybe it's because there not much fictional stories that I find interesting there . 

Probably coz of that :)

Everyone at one point of their lives change . Including me . Especially me . No one stays the same wether you like it or now but how you change , for the better or worse all depends on YOU and how you view things , accept things , your faith , your courage , your determination to succeed in life and the hereafter can all affect yourself . 

True , no one will remain a kid forever , but deep inside , that little kid are still there :')

Without that kid inside you , you'll become a lifeless person who never think about having fun at all .

Without that kid , your life will somehow become duller . Despite how serious and matured someone is , that person is still a kid at heart . Well , you never know what the heart contains do ya ;)

Use your time wisely and Peace be upon you :)

My current thought

It's just the 3rd month of 2012 and I felt like I've been through so much already .

In class , I sat in the back row . From my seat , I see all my classmates of 3 Balqis . I see the way they talk , joke , when they are in serious mode , sad , moody , grumpy , sulking or hyper . I've seen all :) Somehow , I like it when I see them smile , laugh and joke around coz it makes me myself happier but I don't like it when I see them in a bad mood or when they are sad . I'm not good in comforting people when they are sad so I mostly just keep quiet and wait until their mood brightens up .

Selfish . I feel like I'm the most selfish person on earth . I'm the type of person who once I set my mind on doing something, I WANT to do it but when something or someone stop me from doing it , destroy the plan , crush my hopes , I breakdown . It's stupid coz sometimes those things are little matters and some people may not even care about it but the thing is , I do .

My smile . I'm a 15 year old . Born on 5 December 1997 . People say that I have a wide smile and I always smile . I don't think I smile enough though . When you smile , people will think you're happy and in a good mood but truthfully no one knows what the heart contains . Everyone is like that . Smiling , despite the pain . For me , I like to see people's smile so I smile . The only way to get someone smiling is to smile yourself BUT that doesn't mean you should smile to random people or non muhrim . Just smile . Even the Prophet Muhammad SAW always smile so why not we ourselves smile too :')

I'm the type of person who smile at the slightest of things when I'm in a good mood . I keep a straight face when I'm in a bad mood but when people look at me , I smile . I hate making people sad . I don't want to hurt their feelings coz you know , when you're in a bad mood you tend to hurt people's feelings without noticing it so it's better to keep quiet . When I'm tired , I became a silent bomb .  I look calm from the outside but inside I'm fighting myself from letting the bomb explode .

It's very dangerous for me to dedicate myself fully into something because once I dedicate myself to it , I'll become very sensitive and selfish about it and when something didn't work out as I expect it to be .. I'll become sad . I feel like most of the times , I'm just being selfish . Selfish me :)