Me being me

Today , so many things were planned yet none were fulfilled .

NONE .

All I did today was sleep , eat , watch tv on surf the internet . Totally not the best way to live a healthy life lol .

I don't know , I just miss this type of days . The days where I can just rest , chill and relax and not worry about anything :) Days like this turn me into a lazy and unproductive person and somehow I think that my parents are annoyed of me for being so lazy today hahaaa . Can't do anything bout that I guess :) I didn't even study or anything today . I feel like forgetting everything about studies , exams and all those stuff outside of my house and outside of my basic needs that requires loads of thinking . I feel like jumping into the sea or ocean or river and just cool myself down there . I feel like running or hiking or just simply sleep in a grassy field full of flowers or under a shady tree . I feel like all I want to do right now is to run away from the reality for a while . I don't care how long it is . I just need to clear my mind for a bit so that I won't get confused of what my real goal is and who I am . I need this type of days to keep me sane and not become a  robot or zombie who do anything and everything that has been ordered to her . Or maybe , I'm just tired and need some rest .

People who knows me well knows that that I'm the type of kid who get sick easily when I'm tired :)

I often got scolded by my parents for not taking care of my health properly too. ... *sigh* I'm just not good in this kind of stuff that requires daily intake of vitamins and healthy food . My discipline in this kind of stuff are actually quite bad :)

Well I am an active person and someone who like to be involved in activities but at home I become this lazy person who just slouch around doing unproductive stuff most of the times :) NOT all the time though :) I know when I should laze around and when I should start gearing up for whatever reason I have . I am not really that good in organizing time and sometimes I just end up regretting everything . Sometimes I just end up hitting myself literally lol like that would do any good :P But mehh .

That's just me being me . Same old me .

Hey :)

Sometimes , the only thing that I need to cheer me up in a bad day is a simple "Hey" or "Assalamualaikum" or a sincere smile from someone whom I love and care :)

and THAT is all I need .

 Everyone have that moment when they feel sad , down , frustrated , irritated , annoyed  or feel like they are such a loser but I guess you just have to experience those kind of stuff to grow up . Life is just like that . You learn by experience . You learn how to overcome sadness by experience . You learn how to not repeat the same mistake by experience . You learn how to deal with stuff by experience . It may seem cruel and harsh to you because those kind of experiences are not really what you call "sweet memory" but if you really want to become a better and greater person , you have to experience those kind of experiences :)

Believe me , the light in the end will be worth the fight .

Let's all strive for the best and InshaAllah in the end , we will meet each other with a smile on our face :) 

What if there's nothing called defeat or victory ?

My mind is clear . My heart feels calm . I'm happy . Alhamdulillah :)

You know , I may not look like one but I'm a very competitive person BUT I think wayyyy too much sometimes that it becomes my downfall in every competitions OR I just suddenly blurred out OR I suddenly feel sick coz of my unstable health right now but all in all , I love proving to people that I CAN .

I'm not that good . There always seems to be someone who are better than me in anything I do . That's normal :) Completely fine . Before , when I lost or failed in something , I breakdown and become a grumpy mengada ungrateful little kid hahaaa but now I realized that THAT was stupid of me xD Now , I actually take all those loses and failures as a motivation for ME to work harder , improve myself and prove to people that I CAN DO IT . Another thing about me is that I hate to dissapoint people so I tend to work harder and in the end I got sick coz I forced myself too much and resulted into the me now . I'm the result of thinking too much about other people's opinions and feelings and forgetting about me and in the end it harms no other than ME  . Silly me :) Don't worry , I woke up ages ago :) Yeah , society can be cruel and harsh sometimes but why should WE bow down and obey to everything they say if we know that THAT is not right . Stand up for yourself . It doesn't matter if people hate you because of that coz you know what , in the end everyone is the same . Everyone dies and will be judged by Allah SWT . His judgements is fair and you will be rewarded for standing up to what is right .

Now what if there are no "winning" or "losing" in this world right now .
What will happen to us ?
Will we still be fighting with each other ?
Will we still be improving ourselves ?

Now wait . Why is winning or losing even important ?
You see, without  losing , our ego will be as high as a mountain because we have never taste defeat . We will also become lazy and ignorant because we never feel the urge to actually do our best in something so that we can win . We will never feel that satisfaction and victory that winners feel . That feeling when you actually completed something succesfully and knowing that you did your best . Both are important . I'm pretty sure that EVERYONE has tasted both flavours before . Absolutely sure .

Winning or Losing is normal . No one is perfect . Maybe you didn't win something but then later you actually win something even bigger . You see , Allah knows what is best for you . He has everything planned out for you . He knows what's in your heart . He knows your efforts . He knows everything . Therefore keep calm , be positive and push away all those negative thoughts :)

InsyaAllah one day , each of us will become a winner . Not just in this world but also in the afterworld :') Let's keep praying for the best and Assalamualaikum .

Reasons

Why do you go to school  ?

Why do you study ?

Why did you join debate ?

What reason do you have to debate ?

Why are you a muslim ?

What reason do you have to live ?

Why do you eat ?

Why do you pray ?

Why are you friends with whoever you are friend with ?

If given the opportunity , I can write down a whole list of questions with or without the answers :)

Have YOU ever randomly stop and think of the reason why you're doing whatever you were doing before or in that particular time ? Have you ever wonder why you're even doing anything that you have ever done before ?

Well , I'm the type of person who need a reason to actually do something really well coz when I have a reason  , I will become more motivated to do it :) I can still work with no reason , but in the end I will feel weird . I will be wondering what in the world was I doing and stuff . Why would you work with no reason for ? There always has to be a reason . Like , the simplest and nicest of reasons is that you're doing something for Allah SWT :') THAT's a reason . I don't need complicated reasons , I only need simple reasons to give me the sense of urgency to do whatever I have or want to do properly . To make sure I don't slack off . To make sure that I'll will remain sane throughout the whole procedure because I have a reason to remind me of what am I actually doing this for .

Sometimes , even when I go out with my friends of family to have fun , I will firstly think of the reason why I'm going out with them xD and the answer is , because I wanna have fun for a while , strengthen our ukhuwah , understand and get to know them better and just chill and relax ;) See , reasons like that make me cherish and treasure those type of moments more  rather than just going out with them and come back home . BIG difference .

Heyy have YOU ever wonder why you're even reading my post on my blog right now? heheee . Keep on wondering xD



Just a piece of mind from a blurred 15 year old girl on this so called earth .
Peace be upon you and May the odds be ever in your favor  :)

Unfair ?

Why are some people out there still complaining about their life ?
Why are they not satisfied with their life for ?
Why can't they see all the blessings that Allah SWT has given them ?
Why aren't they saying how grateful they are for everything that has been given to them ?
Why are people commiting suicide for ?

If only they take some time in their life to actually THINK . To actually look around and OBSERVE . Then they will see . They will see how lucky and blessed they actually are :')

I have seen and heard loads of people out there complaining about their life . Telling me bout the so called "flaws" on their life and how they wish that their life is better that their current life . Me being me , I just stood or sat there and listen politely while sinking in all those heavyweight info :) Honestly it's quite interesting listening to their rants and wishes lol . Those people , sometimes all they need is to let out their inner speech and their unsatisfaction with their life to finally see how blessed and lucky they are :) We all at on point of our life feel that life is unfair and all those depressing feelings ;) but later after we have calmed down we realized how stupid we were being before and  how blessed and lucky we are actually :)

There are also people out there who have this tendency to compare what he/she have and what other people have . Usually that type of people will feel like life is friggin unfair to them whenever they found out that someone else is better at doing something than them etc. etc, but heyy in this world , there will always be someone who are better than you and someone who are worse than you in something . Besides , everyone is different . Everyone have different abilities and specialties . Someone MAY have the same ability as you do and you feel like that someone is better than you but YOU should take that as a motivation to work harder and beat whoever you think is better than you ;) Take that as a motivation to help you improve and become someone better rather than sulk and complain about how unfair life is . Remember , you gain nothing without effort .So be a fighter ! Don't be like those people who commit suicide because they are not strong enough to handle the pressure of this world . NEVER let anyone bring YOU down . NEVER let their words and actions ruin your life . Stay strong Stay calm . Every problem has a solution therefore look for the solution rather than bowing down to the problem .

Believe me , nothing good comes with giving up and REMEMBER this , Allah knows what is best for you :)


Have a great day and Assalamualaikum :)

Death

Tsunamis and earthquakes .
People truly fear those two things . They fear death . They fear those but the real question is ,do they fear Allah ? Death is such a sensitive topic . Some people got creeped out by merely mentioning that word . That word where no one knows what happens after . "Death" .

When I first saw the tweets in twitter saying that Malaysia had just experienced an earthquake . Tsunami alerts for Indonesia , Thailand and other countries across the Indian Ocean .. I froze . The 1st thing that went into my mind was ''What if I die?'' What if I die in my state now ? Am I prepared to face death ? What will happen after ? What if . So many questions and thoughts flooded my mind then I snapped back . I scanned my timeline on twitter . So many tweets from people saying that they are scared of what's going to happen . They are scared . There are also many tweets about people saying that they should go pray and ask forgiveness from Allah SWT . That's good but I hope that those people will keep on doing that even after everything has toned down :)

"Tidaklah bumi bergoncang kecuali kerana ada maksiat yang dilakukan di atasnya. Bumi gementar takut Allah melihatnya." - Kaab bin Malik RA

You see , tsunamis and earthquakes are a reminder from our Creator to wake up from our slumber ASAP. Wake up people ! the day of Resurrection is getting nearer and nearer and one day it will hit you face on .
This world we're leaving on right now is just a dream . A test . For us . Soon , we will wake up and that day ,you'll either be smiling with happiness and satisfaction or you will be crying with sadness and you will wish that you have listened to those people around you who had invited you to come to right path , to start asking for forgiveness from Allah SWT , to stop commiting all those things that doesn't benefit you at all and to prepare you for your life in the afterworld .


Brothers and sisters in Islam , let us pray for Allah to strengthen our Iman . Let us all pray that Allah will give us courage and the will to fight against all those distracting things out there and the whispers of Syaitan . Let us all pray to Allah that we will die in Iman and please remember , whatever you are , whoever you are , in the end , to Allah is our final destination .

With that , let's all change to the better and Assalamualaikum ;)

That feeling

That feeling you get when you suddenly feel the urge to take a pen and write down whatever you want to write on the spot . I posted a post before telling people about my imaginative self and now all of a sudden , I have this urge to type type and type . Times like this is when I feel like I have been eating too many sugars because right now , my IMAGINE level is at the highest level ;) well actually I think it was at the highest a few minutes a go , but now , slowly , it's decreasing as the clock is ticking .

Each and everyone of us have their own abilities and specialties . I've seen people who claim that they are untalentless yet have so many talents in them . Talents and specialties that are waiting for the arrival of their masters and mistresses to groom them to their best abilities ;) Allah SWT is fair . He knows what is best for us . He knows us better than we actually do because He is the one who created us in the 1st place . Keep THAT in mind :)

Although until now , until this very moment , I still honestly don't really know what MY talent and specialties is .  That's why , sometimes I feel embarassed and pissed of myself . Sometimes I think I know what my talent is but sometimes I do not . Looking at myself now and looking at other people who are or had been in the same age as me now makes me wonder , am I overrated ? lol . Weird . Why do I think that ? It's because some people out there have high expectations for me , praised me , respect me  . They think that I'm smart etc etc . but in the end , I failed their expectations . See how depressing that is ? See how crushing that is ? I feel like I'm such a failure sometimes yet such a winner at others . Hey you know what , THAT is normal :) THAT is what you call LIFE ;) In life , there will always be those crushing depressing dramatically sad moment but there are also those happy cheerful bright satisfied exciting moments .

No matter what , chin up people ! Keep that beautiful dazzling smile on your face and don't let ANYTHING or ANYONE to take it away from you because THAT SMILE belongs to you and you only ;) Cheer up , things may not look good right now but always know that there will be no rainbow without rain , Allah SWT knows what is best for you . Stay calm . InsyaAllah , things will turn out fine and YOU will come out stronger and better than ever ;)

My own special EPIC world ;)

Once upon a time , there was a girl who like to use her imagination to imagine loads and loads of stuff that makes her happy . This girl like to imagine so much that sometimes it distract her from the reality . Astaghfirullah . BUT as she grown older , she gain more self control :) Don't worry , she's still the same old kid who like to IMAGINE but she now knows when is the appropriate time to be in her own special epic world and when to be serious and focus InsyaAllah .

Sometimes , that girl wonder .. does other people imagine stuff like she does ?

 Does other people have their own special epic world ?

Do they sometimes randomly zoned out from a situation and enters their own special epic world ?

I'm pretty sure nearly everybody out there have their own special epic world created by their creative use of imagination :) I think that , THAT is something that all of us were born with . Imagination ;) It's ALL up to you ,  whether you're gonna use your imagination to the best extend and appreciate it or insist on living a life without imaginations . YOUR choice . 

Imaginations are fun esp. when you're bored xD 

Boredom brings out the creativity in my mind hahaaa . When I was a kid , I used to have a looot  of imaginary friends and pets LOL AND I used to have loads and loads of ideas in writing stories AND I actually wrote all of em down :D eg. Donald Duck ( I wrote new original stories bout Donald Duck ) , Kelidi ( An amazing bird full of talent xD My mom used to tell me bedtime stories about this bird , I LOVE my mom <3 ) AND LOADS MORE ! I even made friend with a ball before and made it as my pet and bestfriend , hahaa I used to roll and carry the ball around with me around the house before xD I know it's weird but heyy that's what makes my childhood days much much much MUCH more interesting ;)

The conclusion is that , being imaginative is an awesome thing that Allah SWT had given to you , therefore appreciate it , use it to the best extend , use it to increase your creativity in dakwah and other stuff and always say Alhamdulillah and be grateful for what Allah SWT has given to all of you imaginative people out there and with that .. 

PEACE BE UPON YOU ;)