Trapped

Ever feel like you don't have any other choice?
Ever feel like suffocating because of the pressure around you?
Ever feel like you're trapped in something unexplainable and you can't seem to get out?

The ideas are indeed suffocating. For me at least.
Lately,
as a PMR candidate for 2012, I have to put up with all those thick books, teachers and parents telling me to study and not waste my time and in the end regret it all and a few some who clearly told me that I HAVE to get straight A's LOL. Funny. Oh wait. Not just that :) I also have to put up with all those stuff that PMR candidates have to put up with every year, like PEKA, PAFA, Kerja kursus for sejarah, geografi and kemahiran hidup AND Oral and lisan although both are the same thing but in different language and for different subjects :)

So,
today was one of my unexpected bad health day in school. Not my worst but quite bad to the extend that I feel like dropping down on the spot (I didn't do that though,lol)

So ya,
even now, my condition haven't really improve that much. Maybe 1%, but that's it?
My mom was like so worried of me and it's so obvious that she's that worried because I'm basically sick nearly every day of a week... that explains why I'm always late this days ;)

Well to be honest, I badly need rest. A rest that is clearly not affordable. Since there's still oral english for PMR tomorrow, I can't rest yet. I have no other choice. It's like I'm trapped in a sphere until everything's setlled, then I can rest and by then, high possibility, I'm already in the hospital. No kidding. Or maybe my mom will just give me all the medicines I need at home since she's a doctor herself :) cool huh, lol.

I wish to fly free in the beautiful sky like the birds in this picture =)

Anyways, I pray that no one out there are experiencing the same thing as I am experiencing right now and I also pray that whoever you are, reading my blog at this moment, will find success here and after InshaAllah.

Make the best of the time you have folks

May peace be upon you, always~

In a way

Hahaa.. doesn't that picture remind you of Narnia? lol it does for me! =') heheh.

So anyways, lately, in a way, I've seen many many many changes around the people I love around me. Like seriously, you don't know how happy and grateful and excited and blissed and super proud I am when I see those changes. You know, when you love someone, you want that someone to have and be the best too right? So when you see that someone in a bad state, a part of you, in a way, feel the tension released by that someone causing you to become sad too and in a way it affects you but because you love that someone so much,so you pray everyday that he/she will change and may Allah SWT guide he/she for the better and BAMM one day, all of a sudden, in Allah's mercy, it turned 360 degree lol. What I mean is that, that person whom had been in a bad state have finally see the light and overcome whatever bringing he/she down before =')

I can't help but smile at that.

 It's such a bliss knowing that Allah SWT are listening to your prayers and even more when your beloved someone have change for the better. In a way, sometimes I feel like I'm being too caring hahaa. Why? cause when they are mad,sad or in a bad state or mood, IN A WAY I'll be affected by it. Strange but yeah. Ahhwell, as long as that will not bring me down, I'm fine I guess (even though I cried so hard just because of a particular reason =P)hahaa mehh forget it :)

There's always a solution for a problem. There's always a reason for something to happen. There's always Allah SWT to listen to your prayers. In a way, there's always something/someone out there to keep you smiling .

May peace be upon you

Bliss

It's such a bliss knowing that you have a family who will always back you up no matter what.

It's such a bliss knowing that you are surrounded with great people who always motivates you to become a better person.

It's such a bliss knowing that you have friends who never fail to make you smile and forget about all those depressing stuff :')

It's such a bliss knowing that every good deed you do will help you to go to the best place ever! (heaven)

It's even more blissful knowing the fact that whenever you feel sad or broken, you can always always tell your problems and pour everything out to the best listener ever, Allah SWT :') and he will always be there, listening to your complaints and stories, will always be there watching your every step and whenever you need Him, He will be there no matter what you do. Subhanallah.

This world is in fact full with blessings from Allah SWT which we somehow lots of times, ignore those blessings because we were too focused on our life in THIS world and forgot about our life in the infinite world . 

Look at those flowers, look at those clouds, look at those green grasses and plants, look at the birds, feel the comfort of having a family with you when thousands out there, already lost theirs. Feel the safety and comfort of actually having a proper place to live in when thousands are living in jeopardy and without a proper soft bed to sleep in every night. The fact that you have air-conditioners and fans is a bliss itself coz many are living under the scorching heat,suffering. Water, isn't that a bliss itself? Now, for those who are living in a country without wars and the sound of bombs and bullets ringing in their ears. Haven't you ever thought how great that is?, how blissful that is? The fact that you can just go out and no one will shoot you or stuff. Isn't that just amazing. Bliss.

My point is, look at the bright side, close your eyes and feel how blessed and blissful your life is compared to those who are suffering even worst than your worst out there. Appreciate it all before you wish you appreciated it. 

Peace be upon you :)

Never be the same

As much as I want things to remain as it is .
As much as I want those wonderful moments to never end.
As much as I want stay like this , free of worries, happy, calm.
As much as I wish that somethings don't need to change.
As much as I want some people to stay.
As much as I want all that.

I know.

It will never be the same.

  There are reasons why things happens and I believe, that we should just accept it the way it is. Embrace it, confront it head on and never bow down. As long as we live or as short as we live, people will come, people will leave, memories will be created, hearts broken, hearts healed, that confusing and excruciating emotions you get at times, that happiness and joy you get, satisfaction, that moment when you feel like life's not fair, stepping on obstacles, getting stronger, struggling, growing up, new challenges, new experience, new view of the world, and all in all, keep in mind, that there are things in this world that no matter how much you love and cherish it and you sincerely hope that things will remain that way, those things, will one day change, you will grow up, and somehow just somehow, those things, those memories, those hard earned experience, will somehow never be the same. You will never get the exact same thing again.

  Say, you did the same thing, but is it the same? No. Different. Ironic isn't it. Let's all embrace that fact , heads high, right food forward and shall we keep moving? Definitely, absolutely. Move forward. Create more memories, explore the world, new experiences, strive for best and one day, you will look back and smile at all those bittersweet memories and know deep inside that it will never be the same anymore yet you will always always, cherish and treasure those memories buried in a special place deep inside your heart where no one can possibly touch it until the day where you are destined to meet the Almighty Creator InshaAllah  :' )

 *somehow I feel like crying while writing this post*

Peace be upon all of you and stay strong everyone, have faith and move on .